I'll have what she's having

When life hits you in unexpected ways, the only thing you have left is to get creative to find solutions, and usually this big shakes, they just make some space to bring a new version of yourself, à version you didn’t even know existed or was capable of, so, its all about the attitude you take when these things happen and how you use that creativity to bring a better outcome. It also makes you question what really matters…

Hi its me again, after like months of disappearing. 

My life Has been a rollercoaster lately, but like the rollercoaster that you could see in a final destination movie, i swear!! It has not been fun. 

But here i am, really wanting to write again and share, a little bit of me. 

In all those things that are happening in my life, one of them is that i got a jaw surgery and i was unable to talk for two full weeks and now still in recovery i am wearing elastics that trap my teeth and its still hard to talk, so you can understand how much i need to write and share what is on my mind, not being able to talk makes you stay a lot in your head and wow that has been intense, it’s crazy in there, sometimes scary, sometimes unorganized, sometimes full of ideas. 

That is the tip of the iceberg on my ongoing things, i guess this year of the horse really kicked me in the face. We can all agree right?

When i heard that this year was a lot of moving forward and having a destination, and that things were going to move fast, I didn’t expect to happen literally. (Plot twist i had not a single clue of where i wanted to go)

That being said all of this tumultuous events, have led me to rethink my personal and professional life, have pushed me to actually move from my comfort zone and let the shyness aside. To also bring life to reality and less on the fantasy side. 

You know I thought that i could  pull the blogger lifestyle and make a living out of it, silly me. 

I wasn’t consistent and i was always doubting if i was entertaining or knowdlegable , or inspiring enough. It seems like everyone else is more interesting and me.

I have been a stay at home mom for so long, and honestly that was my dream, til it Wasn’t, dont get me wrong i still love having the time to be with them, prepare elaborated meals each day, and having the time to workout and take my coffee hot. 

But i want more, (like the little mermaid), my kids are getting older and they are going to school and daycare and i do feel that i have so much more to give outside of my house. I love cooking and i would love to become a well know influencer (you know like Martha Stewart or tieghan Gerard) on that , and as much as i have heard, you should write a cookbook, you should sell recipes, etc,. i just dont have the skills to edit and record etc.

i love yoga and i am a certified teacher but I haven’t practiced in so long that teaching will make me feel like an imposter, i love fashion and styling and i used to love dressing up ,but to be honest, i spend most days in pants and sweats that i wear on repeat ( dont judge i have been through a lot), i love doing arts but i dont have a degree were i could teach so i just keep it to myself as a therapeutic way of healing and letting my emotions come out. I was also volunteering in a group for women to work on creativity and that was fun! I might still be able to do that.

And i love makeup, and that is were i am putting my energy. I love doing my makeup and doing makeup to others,  doing makeup allows me to connect with people in a very interesting way, a lot of women come with insecurities and feel overwhelmed with makeup and it is an opportunity for me to connect with them and make them feel at ease, changing the perspective that makeup should hide your face and make you look different and more into an enhancing who you are, and i know this feels very cliche, but it is not about just enhancing superficially, when you do something for yourself in a playful way, your mood shifts and you instantly feel better, and that is how i portray makeup. It is not a need but a moment you take to feel better , whether it makes you feel more feminine, more creative, more put together or even less tired, whatever that is that has a positive impact on you. 

With that being said, i took a full time job, yes yes, it is a huge change from stay at home mom to full time job as a makeup artist. But i am soooo excited,  i feel like i am so ready to get out of the house, dress up, do my makeup, belong to a team, connect with others, be creative, it feels like all of my passions and talents are being intertwined and i get to do it all, also the boutique ill be working for is eye candy, I couldn’t be in a prettier place, and i am a sucker for beautiful aesthetically pleasing places, like, it will be my second home. 

All of this to say that while my life is still going trough a lot, i feel i see the light and the puzzles are putting together. Life is shifting in a positive way and i feel a bit lighter. I feel i am in the right place and making the right decisions to make me feel fulfilled. 

Also days are getting warmer in montreal so that automatically makes me feel better. 

That is all for now, as you can see, i did have a lot to share. 

How has this year been treating you? Am i the only one that feels like we have been hit by a big wave that has shaked us all?

I would love to know

thanks for reading, it makes me feel good to write my thoughts down.

I am back.